Ethan has grown up with a mother who has struggled with drug addiction. She'll periodically hit the bottom and then commit to sorting out her life, but eventually succumb to the drugs after a while. Each time she's gone into rehab, she's left Ethan with her parents. But in the intervening years, Ethan has gone through hell trying to keep things together and take care of his Mom.
When he's at his grandparents, his closest friend is Rebecca, the girl next door. They've confided to each other and the last time they saw each other, those feeling spilled over into a romance of sorts. But then he went away and he didn't return for four years, without any communication at all..
In those intervening four years, Rebecca's life came apart. A car accident took the life of her father and put her permanently in a wheel chair. Her mother, wracked with grief and unable to forgive her daughter, has distanced herself, abandoning Rebecca. So, when Ethan returns, it's almost a godsend to her to have her old confidant back. But the reality of Ethan can't match the fantasies that Rebecca has fostered all of these years. He has issues of his own to deal with. When he learns that his Mom has skipped out on rehab and disappeared, he is determined to find her whatever the cost might be to him or to Rebecca.
A powerful story about parental neglect and the process of reconciliation and healing. Ethan and Rebecca's pain is so visceral and their struggles to cope with their own demons while finding some space to open their hearts to each other so heartbreaking that this is a hard read. It took for a while to get through the story, but that was no fault of the writing. It's simply a story that slows you down as there is so much going on with these complex characters.
It's difficult to imagine a happy ending for this story that would feel realistic and Johnson doesn't attempt to deliver one. Instead, the characters get to be honest with each other and make decisions about what that means for their futures. There's some hope offered in all this, but no joyful reunion or lasting amends. Sometimes, you're not meant to live happily ever after, just to move forward.